I'm back...

Wow, didnt have much time for writing going to church every night.  Nevertheless I had a good time each night and was glad God gave me the opportunity to attend.  I was able to enjoy our national leader on Friday night.  It seemed he was speaking directly to my situation in terms of my finances.  Actually, the whole week I heard messages that seemed to be aimed at my financial situation, nevertheless it hasn't changed yet.  I really thought it would happen last week.  I know that we can't put a timer on God.  He does things in his own time, but Ijust kept feeling that I was supposed to have my breakthrough last week.  Perhaps it's held up?  I don't know what the situation is, but I would prefer it if it would work out now.

Other than my finances, things are going well.  I have my health and strength, a source of income, a wonderful fiancee,and a tremendous anointing on my life.  From the outside things probably look perfect, but yet I feel like I have a thorn in my flesh.  So many things are needed and I can'tdo do anything about them.  God must intervene! 

In other news I got my body magic on Saturday.  We went to visit our good friends who live in Connecticut.  The wife sells body magic and gave me a discount since my bridal party is also ordering from her.  It really makes a huge difference!  I wore it to church on Sunday and it definitely made my clothes look different.  I also wore it to work today.  I like the difference and it wasn't too much of a pain getting into and out of the garment in order to use the bathroom.  I don't think of it as a weight loss product although that's what it is toted as.  I think of it as a girdle, simply something to make my clothes fit more nicely.  I'm glad I got it.  I got it because of my wedding dress only to find out that my dress has so much sheer material on the back, I cannot wear my body magic under it.  :(  My dress looks fine without it though.  I'm very pleased with it. I just need to find a place to get it pressed.

Well, I think that's pretty much all I have to say tonight.  Nothing much is new in my life.  My brother is over filling out job applications.  It's a shame that both of us have advanced degrees (M.S. for him and Ph.D. for me) and yet we are both extremely broke.  It's so disappointing to put in all of that work and then struggle like I'm struggling.  Feels like it wasn't worth it at all.  I heard so many times that it would pay off, is it paying off?  Doesn't feel like it AT ALL! 

Ok, that was a whole lot of complaining and I really shouldn't because God has been wonderful for me.  No, I don't have all of the things I want, and I feel like there are some things that I need that have not been taken care of yet, but I shouldn't complain.  There are people in far worse situations than what I'm facing.  I'm grateful to God that things are not worse.  At least, if nothing else, I have a roof over my head.  As the song says, "it could have been me, outdoors, with no food or no clothes.  or all alone, without a friend, or just among the number with a tragic end, but Lord you didn't see fit, to let any of these things be.  Everyday by your power, you keep on, keep on keeping me.  So  I wanna say THANK YOU LORD for alllllll you've done for me!  I think that's all I want to say tonight.  Good night!

P.S. IF there are any prophets/prophetesses among my readers, I would love to hear a word fom the Lord.  Speak to my heart.  I need a word!